7th June

Ok i havent posted on here in ages am really sorry!!

i cheated :( fo 2 weeks i ate everything i liked its terrible, pizzas, sandwiches everything with loads of carbs, i felt so bad eating them, and felt i let everyone down

it started with a reallly bad craving for pizza, i thought ok ill let myelf have 2 slices (which i did) then it was kayleighs hen night 2 days later so i decided to healthy eat till then and enjoy her night, so went for an italian and few drinks, spent every morning saying this was a new day and just couldnt do it

last tue 29th may i started again, and went for a weigh in on the thursday and had managed to stay the same snce i had las seen my cdc which is 13 stone 3lbs i was soooo happy, stuck religously until Tue as it was my 20th birthday, i did have the day off and managed to portion control so i am very very happy :) however yesterday i still had food :( but today i am bk to ss and feeling very confident, hoping to see cdc on Saturday morning and to have stayed the same :) so fingers crossed for me guys :)

update on everything else, i ended what ever i had with davie, i realised he wasnt who i thought he was, i still like Phil he is such a lovely person but i just dont think i am ready for a relationship, i need to concentrate on being happy with myself first, i have started my new job @ barclays and i love it!!! made few new friends too :)

so back to ss and i promise to keep posting from now on :)

oh and this is technically week 5 off my diet and week 6 will start on saturday :)

xxx

13th May 2007

weigh in day today and didnt do as well as i had hoped :(
lost 3lb, thought i would have lost more cos of exercise, cudnt have stuck to diet anymore than i did, have lost 7 inches this week tho, and if am honest, yes i wanna be 'healthly' but i do wanna look better to, so inches matter a lot!!!

went to see my mam and step dad neil today, they really encourage me on my diet and say they love seein me loose weight and that i make them proud which is fab

had nice chat with heather my cdc she is fab!!! cudnt do this without her, she is going to take photos next week!!!! best remember make up hahahah, also startin add a meal next sunday too so gonna go for some shoppin this week

i can do this!!!

xxx

12th May 2007

officially 3 weeks since starting cambridge diet, really cant believe i have lasted this long, dont think anyone else can either lol, am determined to prove them all that although i have zero will poer, that because i am determined enough to do this that i will!!!

david came round today, gettin on really well, he even commented on me loosin weight!!! brownie points for him lol, managed around 3 litres of water, so not as good as the rest of the week but still good :)

craving pizza soooo badly today, sat here crying cos i want food but cant have it, cant thank Nikki enough for makin me realise i dont want or neeed it, and she is soo right, would have felt sooo bad if i ate it, thanks to Mark to for listenin to me go on and on and on about it hhaha

went into town tonight and managed to stick to water!!! so impressed with myself, its weigh in da tomorrow hope i have done well

xxx

p.s thanks Nikki ya a star dunno what i would do without ya, looking forward to our 2 pint challenge hhaa

11th May 2007

went swimming again today, joined the sunderland club and now get to swim for free for 2 hours a day at certain times so now i dont have any excuse not to go hahha

starting to enjoy swimming, managed 50 lengths then my arms and legs started to ache so gave up, dont wanna push myself then end up hating the thought of goin cos at the min i actually enjoy it :)

managed loads of water today again, and managed my 3 packs a day which is always good hahhaha feel really positive and defo dont wanna give in, so glad i have stuck it out, people are startin to notice a difference which is fab :)

xxx

10th May 2007

Was going to go and see my mam today, but had loads of work to do :( managed really really well with the water tho :)

had my 3 packs, i love choc tetras sooooo much, was gonna go swimming but thought i shoud let my body recover a bit first lol think its in shock

feel soooo much healthier in general i love it, my skin and hair look loads better too

cant wait to be thin :) am actaully starting to like this diet!!! how strange

xxx

9th May 2007

day 18 and i am doin really really well

over half way through week 3 and it is honestly gettin easier!!!

went swimmin on my own today, was sooooo scared and mortified, but i managed it i am sooo proud of myself!!! managed 50 lengths then got scared cos i had to get out and everyone would see all my fat, but i managed it quite well i think, i walked there again :) so its all good, i am hoping for a 6lb loss this week but we shall see, i will be happy with anything from 3lb plus :)

managed really well with the water again :) jus still not gettin much uni work done

xxx

8th May 2007

had such a fab day i feel soooo positive and happy and full of energy i love it!!!

i have managed 10 pints of water again!!!! very pleased with myself

and i walked to newcastle road baths its a few miles took me around 30 mins, and then i went swimming and did 30 lengths i am sooooo proud of myself cos i never ever do exercise, feel sooo positive

met jona for lunch and he had a sausage sandwich n i didnt even want it!!!

got loads of uni work done too

soooooo soooo happy!!!!

xxx